Today, I turn thirty-two.
I haven’t had a “real” birthday in four years, and while being a leap-year baby is a fun fact to throw out there, the concept of it is fucking weird. An extra day every four years because that’s how calendars work? Weird.
I remember most of my leap year birthdays. They were all so special I paid extra attention. Some were happy, and some were sad. Most were weighed down with expectations. I think deep down, I believed birthdays were the one day a year you’re allowed to really celebrate yourself. That’s a lot to put on a day.
I want all of my moments, the good and the bad, to be special. The slow and the hectic. The joyful and the grieving. Playing favorites with life’s moments had me stuck in the past, and I am learning to accept them all and look for magic every chance I get.
Every moment matters, not just the ones we choose.
I accept this moment, regardless of how much I wish I had a pen and could rewrite the script. We rewrite our stories by being present in the moment, manifesting, and creating the next.
This birthday is special in its way; I survived the years of worry and confusion, made my way through the doubts, and found answers to questions I never thought I could ask. I am pushing through the discomfort, knowing that good days will find me as long as I stay here, committed to living and keeping myself energetically available.
I am trusting in my inner voice and recognizing my worth. I am keeping an eye on my heart, body, and mind.
I am trying, and I can finally say it’s working.
Graftful.
Thank you for being here! Check out my deck, All of You is Magic, which is currently on pre-order. Pre-sales are a huge help for authors, so if you’re getting one, do your girl a favor and get it on my birthday.
WHAT I’M WATCHING
The Midnight Gospel on Netflix. I am losing my shit over it. I think it found me at the right time.
WHAT I’M LISTENING TO
May your moments be accepted for what they are. Have a beautiful weekend.
Love - light & shadows
Zulfa
❤️❤️❤️❤️🌈✨ magical
Happy Birthday, my sweet talented friend! You are such an amazing writer! Thank you for sharing a glimpse into your world and for shining your light. I’m out here with a lantern, searching for myself. Yesterday was so emotional, I realized I want to write too. Thank you so, so, much for being you! Thank you for being and shining! 💕✨🙏